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Oct 15Liked by Bill Gardner

You are sharing your writing and your experiences with the world. As a result you are making the world a better place. You are teaching, and allowing people to experience through your eyes, your feelings, your senses. Your writing will be a gift to many through the years and decades. You are creating empathy for others and making this a better world for all. Thank you for all that you are doing. Thank you for the gift of you being here.

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Oct 15Liked by Bill Gardner

Why are you still alive, Bill? Maybe it's so we can be humble together. That may be an unseen answer all through life, but it takes a shape we all can see now in your life as you share it with us. They say life gets smaller as we age and come closer to the end. Maybe it seems that way to you sometimes as you sit alone. But your life expands as you share it with us, and along with it a feeling of wonder and awe, not just about you, your persistence and courage, but also about the incredible fact that we all share this miracle of awareness that (in your case) persists no matter what afflicts your body. Who knows, as evidence accumulates from near-death experiences, maybe we'll begin to accept that that awareness persists beyond death, independent of what current-day science, and our beliefs, tell us. So why are you still alive? Maybe it's so that we can be left in quiet together with humbleness, gratitude, and love.

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Oct 14Liked by Bill Gardner

Your words are true, Bill, you are touching lives. I can only speak to how you've touched mine, as a guide to finding meaning amidst suffering. When peace visits you, may you grasp its hand as firmly as I feel you have held mine.

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Oct 15Liked by Bill Gardner

Bill this was a very beautiful piece. Pure heart. It reminded me of Thomas Merton’s prayer:

“MY LORD GOD, I have no idea where I am going. I do not see the road ahead of me.

Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think that I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so.

But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you.

And I hope that I have that desire in all that I am doing.

I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire.

And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road though I may know nothing about it.

Therefore will I trust in you always though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death.

I will not fear, for you are ever with me, and you will never leave me to face my perils alone.

Amen.”

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Oct 14Liked by Bill Gardner

Thank you for sharing this beautiful meditation. You are in my prayers.

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Thank you for sharing your experience with us. I hope the surgery goes well and you’re sustained in peace in the days and weeks ahead.

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Oct 16Liked by Bill Gardner

Thank you for your wisdom and fortitude. What an incredible example of 'will to meaning' , that is otherwise hard to understand and hard to show. We are learning lessons that will last till the end of our lives and beyond. Your posts are an entire course or a book. May these words diffuse into many hearts.

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Oct 15Liked by Bill Gardner

I have not read anything quite like this. All spiritual and religious people should read this it is pure God and pure humanity. Those who proclaim they know what Jesus wants us to do are light years away from understanding. To hold each others hand through sickness and fear, to hear our plea to God to be with us, and to live humbly and innocently as a child. This is what we need to know in order to know Jesus

I have learned so much from you in your suffering. Thank you Bill🙏❤️

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Oct 15Liked by Bill Gardner

Continue to be so grateful for your life and your writings. Sending prayers for the procedure and for an abundance of grace during these difficult days.

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Oct 15Liked by Bill Gardner

Thank you, Bill. Your story is providing a lesson to me about humility, and love, and trust, and wonder. I hope the trach insertion goes smoothly and gives you some relief.

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Bill, Pam and I are beside ourselves with sorrow for all that you are going through. Your equanimity and humility in the face of all this is beyond my comprehension. That you can go through this and continue to share as you have is a gift to everyone, surely as valuable as another research monograph. You and your family are in our thoughts.

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